Ok. No, this is not ok!

I think the first signs of the winter have come. The air is getting colder, the leaves have changed colour and start falling off the trees. I have started to put on my winterjackets, gloves and scarves.

In one way I like it, in the other way I don't. It's nice to stay inside with candles, by the fireplace, under a quilt but it's not nice to be outside, in the cold. It's too cold! But I'm looking forward to Christmas and New Years Eve!

Oh gosh, how will I survive this winter?


This morning I went to a bookstore to buy an english exercisebook for Fabio. I bought two. And I bought two dictionaries too, one for me and one for Fabio, so now we're prepared for some studies!

The thing is that my italian exercisebook is almost finished... Maybe I should have bought myself a new one... Or maybe I should just continue to read my triology by Steig Larsson. It's more entertaining!


Our bedroom has arrived!

This is the picture from the catalogue.
Our bedroom is not that big, it has white walls and wooden floors so it'll be a bit different. Now the furnitures are still in pieces, but when it's ready I'll show you how beautiful it is! :)

Leather is the thing

Today is just a lovely autumn day. The sun is shining, the leaves are coloured and this morning I had a walk in Padova.

My first mission was to find some long sleeved t-shirts so I went straight in to H&M. I bought a knitted sweater (not a long sleeved t-shirt) in black, a pair of leather cloves and a pair of leggings, leather imitationed ones with a zip by the ankle. I'm happy, I'll look good, I'll keep warm and I didn't spend too much money. Can it be any better?

I´m cleaning out my closet

I love fashion!
Clothes, shoes, bags and accessories. Everything! And now it's also time to find an autumn jacket.

Yesterday I emptied my wardrobe, from top to toe. I started to pack the summerclothes in my so called handluggage since it's not too long until I'll leave for Thailand. I found clothes that I love and that I have loved, maybe a bit too much, but I thought this trip could be the perfect and last chance for them the be worn.

I continued with clothes that I don't wear too often like some special party tops, some skirts and the rest of the summerclothes. Half of the huge suitcase was filled.

The other half had to be filled with autumnclothes, shoes and jackets and I filled the suitcase very well... But I still had all my shoes and 2 jackets left. I had all my books and underwear left. I started to realize that I actually have quite alot. Alot of things. I still need some more fashion. I know that I have a lovely short jacket back home so I'll deal with it when I'm in Sweden... Just 28 days to go now!

Swedish food

Ok, now it's 30 days left 'til I'll be back home... And I love it. I miss it. I just want to go right now! The other day I actually thought about the things that I do miss. It's Food. Food. Food.

+ Wholemeal bread (grovt bröd)
+ Karelian pies (karelska piroger)
+ Müsli
+ Caviar (kaviar)
+ Liverpate (leverpastej)
+ Candy (lösgodis)

Uff. But now it's only one month left, then I'll eat myself fat with all of those lovely things!

An italian wedding

I got up at 7 to put my make up on and get dressed. At 8.15 I had to be at the hairdresser and at 9.45 Fabio picked me up. We went to his house that was full of white rosettes and people. They had rinfresco (things to eat and drink) and I got presented to all the relatives and friends.

We went all together to the church. While we were waiting outside the church, a man (a friend of the family) dressed as the bride came out of a car. It was just so fun! He always makes those kind of jokes at weddings. Anyway, the bride arrived and we went in to the church. I sat down on the first raw with the family members. It was emotional and the ceremony was beatiful.

Afterwards we were waiting for the couple outside, ready with rice and photo cameras. A photographer took a lot of photos and then it was time for the restaurant. But before that the couple had to empty the car that was full of balloons. Fun!

Finally we arrived at the restaurant. The sun was shining and the place was fantastic. It felt like being in a fairytale. You must have a look at

The fabulous restaurant

We started with the aperitif in the park and continued with the appetizers. Then we had 2 first courses, 2 main courses and 4 desserts plus coffee. There was just so much to eat. But it was more to come!

I went home with Fabio, Romero and Alessandro a bit earlier then the others. Fabio had to prepare the music and Alessandro had to cut up the pork. There was beer, wine and spirit and the evening continued with dance. At around midnight they had fireworks and at 4 o'clock I fell asleep. Thank you for a lovely wedding!

PS. -30 days and I'll be back home DS.


The bathroom is done
The kitchen is up
The floors are changed
The walls are painted

Still some details left and (almost) all the furnitures, then we're ready to move in.

The kitchen


Extra space under the stairs (in the livingroom)

The bathroom

The bathroom


You know those days when you don't have anything do to, when you invent things or do things you normally don't? I hade one of those days yesterday. I went to Tommasini to buy white nailpolish and arc tips for the nails, you know the ones that you use for doing french manicure? I tried and it turned at to work very well, so now I have one thing less on my mind (one thing which I didn't even think of before).

I'm trying to think of everything for the wedding to avoid surprises on saturday...

I just realized that it sounds like I'm the one who's getting married. I'm not, but I'm a bit nervous and very excited because I feel like I have to make a good impression. I actually have the most important things

  1. Dress
  2. Shoes
  3. Bag
  4. Jacket
  5. Nails

so I shouldn't really worry. The things that are still a bit unsecure are

  1. Hair
  2. Make up

but I have an appointment at the hairdresser and I know that she will pull my hair up strictly in the back, then make something with small braids and maybe put a flower in it. Maybe something like this:

And I will do the make up myself. Since it's a wedding the make up has to be quite simple and not too much. I normally wear foundation, rouge and mascara. Sometimes I use eyeliner and sometimes I use eyeshadow in colours like brown, gold or green. I think I want it to look as natural and as simple as possible this time.

Do you have any suggestions about the hair or/and the make up?
I'd be happy if you do!


Monday morning,
after a bad-started weekend with a good ending.

Friday evening: I watched "Io canto" and sang along to Max Pezzali and Alessandra Amoroso. I talked to Jennie about old memories and Fabio was painting the walls in our apartment.

Saturday: I was talking to my mum, I didn't feel very good... I was staying in bed until lunch. After lunch Fabio asked me to come with him to buy the sink for the bathroom. We wen't to Mercatone Uno, we went to IKEA, we went to Eurobrico and Leroy Merlin, but we didn't find what we wanted. We found a pair of lamps, that's it. After some discussions, problems in the toll of the highway and a head that felt like exploding I just wanted to go home... so we did.

I went to buy some salad and suddenly I had 4 messages on my phone. Fabio tried to call, but some problems with his phone or Vodafone made it impossible. I tried to call back, impossible. I went back home, but Fabio wasn't there. He had gone to Leroy Merlin to buy a sink that we both said no to in the shop. It made me confused.

I had a bath and prepared myself for the evening. I went to Helga, we went to Sala to meet Fabio and Annamaria and then we went to Vigonza. We had some drinks, we were talking... with strange guys, in danish... and returned home quite late. With Saverio, Fabios best friend who's living in France, on the phone we had a crazy moment... As always when Saverio's around. After that, straight to bed!

Sunday: I slept 'til 12.30, had lunch and watched some of the MotoGP with Fabio. Afterwards he asked me to help him with getting away the colour from the floor, so I did. Later, when I had finished my work, I went in to the bathroom and actually found it ready. I went in to the bedroom and saw that the hole in the wall had become a window and the floor was changed. I went in to the small space under the stairs and found it painted all in white. I could see the difference and it just made me so happy! The things that are missing are the kitchen, to get it up on it's place, the floors in the livingroom and the floors in the space under the stairs. Soon soon soon... FINALLY!


Do you know how it feels when you really want something but you can't have it?
When you really suffer missing just THAT and could do anything to get it?

I had that feeling yesterday evening. I was babysitting, the children were sleeping and I sat by the computer on Facebook. I was talking to a swedish friend when he suddenly said "I might be a bit off, there's this program on the tv that I want to see". It was "Idol", one of my old favourits that starts with a new season every autumn. It made me a bit sad and disappointed because I wanted to see it, but couldn't. Uff...

Anyway, today I've been solving my problem. I've looked up the tv schedule so I know what programs I can watch and when. I actually got a bit surprised...

I can see
"My name is Earl" every day at 14.20-14.50
"Ugly Betty" every day at 17.35-18.25
"Who want's to be a Millionair" every day at 18.50-20.00

Just like in Sweden! :)

And I can see a new movie every evening
Tonight "The incredible HULK"
Tomorrow "I Robot"
On saturday "Shrek 3"

So even if I miss "Idol" and other tv-shows in Sweden I'll be just fine with my italian-tv!

Some shopping, some happiness!

Finally, here it is... The dress! Do you like it?

And of course I've had time to find other things too.
Love love love when seasons are changing. Love shopping! :)


All around the world

I am a curious person, that's why I just loooooove travelling!

I love to get away for a while
to discover things I didn't know
to meet people I've never met
and to see places I've never seen...

That's why I chose to become an aupair in Italy!

But now times are changing and I'll actually remain in Italy. I'll do my travels to Sweden instead, to go back "home" and visit everyone. Not to discover things I didn't know, not to meet people I've never met before, not to see places I've never seen. Now it's on the contrary, I'm actually going home to remind me of the things that I do know, to meet the ones that I've always met before and to see my old home that I've always seen... But I like that feeling. It makes me happy.

Yesterday I actually booked my next plane home. I'll leave from Milano Bergamo to Stockholm Skavsta the 10 November at 20.20 and I'll arrive at 22.50. So people, I want you to be prepared this time! It's only 1,5 month left ;)

Swedish politics

I just read a swedish girls blogpost about the parliamentary elections in Sweden. This girl wrote her opinion about Sverige Demokraterna (Sweden Democrats or SD) that are participating in the parliamentary for the next 4 years.

"SD is a Swedish political party that describes itself as a nationalist movement. They are in favor of the traditional nuclear family and wishes to a strongly restrict immigration." Wikipedia

This young girl wrote that she´s ashamed to call herself swedish. That´s one of the most horrible things I´ve ever heard. She should be proud of living in such a beautiful and well functioning country and she should be proud of being swedish!

I actually do agree with SD in some parts, but it does´t mean that I´m a rasist. I think that Sweden has too much immigration and I think that Sweden is getting too much influences from the immigrants. The swedish people have to accept and to change, the immigrants don´t. And if the swedish people don´t accept or don´t change, they´re called rasist. I don´t think it´s right! I mean, the swedish people accept the immigrants by letting them live in Sweden. Then the swedish people get called rasists because they have swedish commercial on the tv or because they let their children sing the national anthem at school. I think it´s wrong! It´s Awful!

If people want to immigrate to Sweden I think they should be allowed, but then they have to adapt themselves to the swedish traditions and the swedish culture. Swedish people should not have to adapt themselves to the immigrators, they´re living in Sweden and they should be able to be swedish.

I actually know how it is to move to another country and what it means to adapt yourself to the culture, the religion and the traditions. Some things are different and I have to accept it. That´s just how it is! Simple!

Just smile, be happy!

Sometimes you just smile. For nothing. For something. For everything.
Today I'm happy! The sun is shining and I'm listening to good music.

I had a talk with one of my best friends earlier and she made me realize one thing... How important it is to have real friends, just like her. Friends that you can always trust. Friends that needs something from you but always gives you something back. Friends that you laugh and cry with, that you share things with, that you discover things with. I'm just so lucky to have those friends! The only bad thing is that they're all far away. And that I miss them.

I'm having trouble sleeping

Last night I just couldn't sleep. I had so many thoughts running around in my head. I felt stressed, weak... and depressed. But fortunatly I had my boyfriend next to me who stayed awake with me and encouraged me. After all he made me fall asleep.

When I woke up I was tired (as I should have been after a night without sleep). I went back to bed and slept a few hours, then I woke up again at 11.30 and felt even more tired than before. I ate, had a shower and talked with my italian parents about the future.

Since I didn't get in at University I need to find a job. A real job. A job that I feel comfortable with. A job where I can earn some money. A normal job. And I need to change my residence. At the moment I feel quite lost. I'm in the middle of what I think is my old and my new life... and it's confusing! It's not that I don't like to be here, because I really do, it's just something that I've never thought about before. To move, yes, but not to another country right away and not at this moment. Well, it's life. Everything happends for a reason, no?

I have to start all over again... But anyway I'll hold on to my passed.

The Perishers - Trouble sleeping
this just reminds me of the O.C.

LIFE is the thing that comes in between your plans.

That means that I'm living my life and I just have to accept it. They say that life is what you make it... You make your choices, but you can't decide how it will end.

I decided to take the test, but I didn't enter at University. I had 3 points less then I needed to get in... 3 points. Uff! Anyway, now I've tried and it didn't work this time... Let's just hope it does next year.

So from now on my next project is to find a job!

PS. The tiles in the bathroom are up... And it's beautiful! And it will be even more beautiful when it's finished! Finito as we say. DS.

The small ones are growing up

Tuesday, the second day of school for "my" children.

You should have seen them yesterday and the night before. Both of them found it very hard to sleep in the night since they knew that the day after was their first day of school. In the morning they woke up at 6, they changed their clothes, brushed their teeth... and they were ready to go! 

The youngest one, the girl, has now started 1st class and she's just waiting for the next morning to come. She's very happy to go to school, to meet her new teacher and friends and she seems to want to learn things, to be big (as her brother). We'll see how long that lasts...

The older one, the boy, has started 4th class. He was happy the first day, but in the afternoon he was already tired of doing his homework. I just hope it won't be to hard for him to do it.

These days I'm just waiting for my results from school. I also want to start school. I also want to meet new friends and learn new things. I just hope my results are enough to get in. I'll just wait and see.

Goodbye summer, hello autumn!

The ones who knows me knows that I love clothes.

I love when the seasons are changing, like now when autumn is arriving. Then I have the possibility to change my stile and my wardrobe. Normally I put away the summerclothes and take out boxes filled with autumnclothes from last year and every year I get surprised and very happy. I feel like a little child on Christmas Eve.

Then... of course... I always feel like buying something new. The last days I've looked up websites of shops that I can find in Sweden like Ginatricot, BIKBOK & Monki. But there was only one that I actually liked:
BIKBOK. Good website, lovely clothes to normal prices. Just as it should be!

Good luck!

Ok, the test is done!
It wasn't as hard as I thought it would be, but you know how it is when you're excited, a bit nervous... Sometimes it can be good, but in some cases you get unsecure and you just do things wrong. I just hope I didn't. It felt good anyway... So now I have one thing less on my mind, and that's good! The next "big" thing is the wedding... And I'm prepared!

At the moment I'm sitting at my boyfriends house. He's working, just as I did until one hour ago. The children were behaving extremly good tonight which made it alot easier for me. I cooked, made their favourite dish ("pasta al ragù" it's pasta with a sauce of minced meat) and read a story (Bolt) in italian, that was enough to please them. I was lucky!

Lucky, as I always am. I'm just so happy with my life right now! With being here in Italy. With my boyfriend v

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